Winter Brings Cold Weather and Change

So its official I am engaged, talk about a major change in my life. I never thought this would happen to me, especially this soon. She is an amazing woman and I LOVE HER. We totally balance each other, she is strong in the qualities that I lack, and  for the most part I feel that I am strong in the qualities that she lack's(although she might not admit that LOL...she thinks shes close to perfect, but then again don't most ALL women).




We went on our first multi-state road trip together and wow was that an experience. I was able to add a new state to my list of travels, Idaho. It was extremely cold, snowy, flat and I'm sorry Idaho but BORING. The purpose of the trip was fulfilled though, I was able to see were my fiancée went to college and meet her really close college friends so over all it was not a bad experience at all. We did also stop in Utah twice once on the way there where I got to stay the night with my aunt and once on the way back where we stayed with Stephanie's close family friends. They were a really nice family nine kids, I really enjoyed holding the youngest who was 3 weeks old, they adopted her from their niece who is a drug addict . The baby was the cutest sweetest thing so quiet and peaceful, she pretty much slept the who time. The parents are the most amazing people I ever met, I don't know how they do it but I hope to be just at least half of what they are. So then during the actually driving there were a few serious arguments about nothing serious at all and a lot of boredom, but  we survived.

So it will be December soon, like literally tomorrow and I have so much to do. In the next two weeks I will be moving into my new apartment, writing a 10pg paper, a 5pg paper, some work experience paper and 2 finals. Then right after all of that it will be Christmas, I am not looking forward to all of this but it will be an experience. The only thing I am looking forward to about the holidays is waking up to Stephanie in our own place! I LOVE her so much and it will be the greatest feeling in the world. So to all who is reading this which is maybe one person :( wish me luck!

Good Bye Summer

Talk about a busy summer, it went by so fast. Between two classes,two part time jobs, house sitting my aunts house(watching the dog) and a new relationship, the whole summer was intense. I did well in my math class I didn't struggle but I did get a little lazy, also I got some work done on my 69 Chevy in the Auto shop. I was able to get more hours on campus than previous summers which was really nice I love working on campus, Everyones Attitude is so positive! Its hard to find jobs like that and with my previous life/work experience thats most important to me in a job. I wish I could say the same about the new part time job on the weekends. I really enjoy the actual work driving all around town delivery auto parts, but the atmosphere in which I actually work in is not such a positive environment I leave at the end of the day usually stressed from my interactions with people. I think to myself all day long that I need to learn how to deal with this people and that I shouldn't let them upset me but I still haven't figured out a way. I need to figure out the right solution soon or else. House sitting was a new and awesome experience really showed me what I want out of life! I feel bad for killing some of my aunts plants and also burning one of her potholders. I just thought of it right now I should buy her a gift card to A nursery and  a new potholder I will do that today! I probably would never have thought about that if it wasn't for writing this blog Hi-Five. So last but certainly not least(save the best for last right?) I met a girl or as my grandpa would make me say A ladyfriend. Ms. Stephanie Nelson from Salida, Ca. She has taught me so much about life, myself and being in a relationship. From our very first conversation I was swept off my feet and me being a man I dont want to admit that a woman has me "sprung" but she does. I've never met someone who is so understanding and accepting of my faults. I'ts only been a little over a month and I've already made some huge mistakes in which I am not proud of but she was right there to help me through it and listen to my thoughts as well as give me hers. One of the biggest things I am working on is honesty most importantly being honest with myself. In the past I've always agreed or said things that I really did not want or felt (especially in relationships) to please the other person because its what I assumed they wanted or wanted to hear. I really need to one stop assuming and two allow my self to feel, say and do what I want. I know there needs to be a balance in this I just cant go around doing what ever I want I need to keep other peoples feelings in to consideration. BALANCE is the hardest thing in life but Its the biggest goal in which I want to achieve. I feel that having Balance in every single aspect of my life is essential in living a good life!

I wanna be living that good life!

living life, feeling free of any mental slavery! 

thats how its supposed to be! right?